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I killed the rainbow fish


…atleast that is what the evidence points to. I have finally finished sewing the 9! dance costumes for the dance studio that my daughter attends. It was 1st time sewing with sequined fabric. It was tricky, but I got through it. These sequins are everywhere! They just follow you all around the house.



I usually listen to music while sewing, but today enjoyed the silence. It forced me to get lost in my thoughts. As I was finishing the costumes I thought to myself, ” If my home-ec teacher could see me now…”. And it was from there that I started down memory lane…

I was always the type of person who could be good at everything I wanted to do. Things just came easily to me. I hate to sound vain or that I’m “tooting my own horn”, but that’s just the way it was. If you know me personally, you would know that I am about as self critical as they come. But back to the story- I know I had alot of potential, but I never cared to apply myself . I had a pretty troubled upbringing and was headed in the wrong direction for a very long time. No one ever expected anything from me, nothing good anyway. With the exception of one person, there was no one who ever encouraged me to do anything positive. And that person was, and is, my grandma. It always seemed that she lived a world away, but she was the only one who really knew who I was inside and who I could be, and was excited about it! It wasn’t until recently that I came to one of the biggest revelations of my life. She is everything that I have ever aspired to be. My marriage, my children, my friendships with others, my relationship with God. She has had a hand in it all. She is the reason memories and traditions are so important to me. She is the reason I have a need to turn the mundane into a party. She has set the bar high. Not only for herself, but in her expectations and hopes for me. And it is because of her and the grace of God that I have far exceeded those. I don’t know why I’m feeling extra nostalgic today, just so many thoughts swimming around. Sometimes you have to remember where you’ve been to really appreciate where you are. I may not have followed the easiest path, but I am positive that I have come down the right one.  



5 thoughts on “I killed the rainbow fish

  1. You should sew without music more often. :o) Such a sweet post and it’s good for the soul to remember the good things God has blesesd up with!

    And I’m happy for you that those costumes are DONE!

  2. What a great tribute! I think we can all say we’ve done some pretty not so bright things … I to am thankful that God stuck with me and helped me get to where I am today … and where I’ll be tomorrow … and so on and so on ~

    Happy day to you.

    BTW – love the sequins 😉

  3. This is wonderful testimony to show that God is faithful and that He has a plan for each and every one of us! I am proud of the things you have accomplished and set your mind to! God uses specific people in our lives to let us know that He is there. Thank God for Grandma! I don’t think she may even realize the impact that she had on our lives!

    Love you!

  4. Your grandma is such a cutie! 🙂

    I feel the same way about mine. I only knew her for 18 years, but she exemplified real, down-to-earth Christianity to me. And she was a good cook, a wonderful gardener, and a stellar homemaker. (Apparently, I missed out on more than a few of her genes.)

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